Well I had wanted to join in the exposed project, but as some of you know my computers all died on me and I have no access to a computer to put up pics, crop and do other stuff with.  There's always the library I guess but I haven't had the chance to make it there before it closed within the past week or two.  So I'm going to try and do this minus the pictures.  When I can get to a computer to edit the pics (and a camera that isn't as much crap as my current one heh) I'll edit the post with pics.

    Exposed is called exposed because you're putting up headless photos of yourself exposing your body while pointing out the parts you love, rather than the parts you would normally look at and hate.  Without pics it might seem a little weird but I'll do my best to explain heh.

     Pre warning...while I like most people hate a great deal about myself...I think I love a lot of myself at the same time hehe.  So the list might be a little longer than it should be.  Also in no particular order...

1.Shoulders
     I always felt my shoulders were fine, although looking back at some 5 year old pics I realize my shoulders were pretty much non existent hehe.  Luckily I think broad/defined or something shoulders are in my genetics.  When I go to the gym with a friend of mine he's constantly jealous or complaining about how my shoulders are so much better than his.  I have to admit that I like them from certain angles, shoulders help to make you feel like more of a man or something I guess.

2. Abdominals
     I started martial arts when I was 4, so I think I pretty much had a 4 pack since I was 4 heh.  First time I ever realized what they were was when I was in 4th grade sleeping over at my friends house.  His older sister had her friends sleeping over and me walking around topless as I like to do ever since being born one of the girls swooped me up and took me to her sleeping bag with her so she could play with my abs.  She was shocked that I had a 6 pack...I didn't even know what a six pack was, but I didn't mind being fondled hehe.  However skinny I've ever been I've always had my abs.  They're something I always default on when I might feel bad about anything else, and they're my reminders of how long I've been into Martial Arts.  Kicks are definitely the best ab work, I almost never did any crunches or anything until a couple years ago.

3. Arms
     My ex used to love my biceps...they were tiny then too hehe.  But I guess just in general being skinny helps with being super cut all around.  So things either look really ripped or bigger than people might expect.  My biceps now are much bigger than when I was with her, my triceps especially have grown.  I used to always get teased by everyone for being so skinny, and most of the time it's because of my arms.  I gained 20lbs and it's definitely noticeable. ^_^...still need 20 more though hehe.
 (This is a couple years old but it's to replace current update ones until I can get my comps and cameras working again)

4. Hair
     My hair is the bane of my existence...in some ways hehe.  My hair really really sucks.  I have never been able to style it the same way twice.  It has a mind of it's own and it does whatever the heck it wants.  However...for whatever reason it is super soft.  People (usually girls) love to touch it and play with it cuz of the softness...and I like my head being scratched so it works out.  When I had long long hair I remember girls used to get pissed off because mine looked better than theirs heh.  I colored it once and the lady who cut my hair was afraid I had ruined it forever, but it's back to being just as soft as before once again...so yay for that.

5. Lips
     They're not the biggest, and my lower lip is definitely bigger than my upper lip...but I'm just grateful I have semi full lips.  No real explanations needed for that heh.

6. Eyes
     My eyes are both good and bad, I wish they looked more Asian just so I wouldn't constantly have to convince people that I am Asian since eyes are generally the first thing people look at in that regard.  I do have pretty typical half breed eyes I think though.  I've met a lot of halfbreeds with eye shapes similar to mine, usually the ones who are children of an Asian father and a white/hispanic mother.  But for some reason it gives a bit of a "mysterious" or "weird" look I guess, which is nice to hear from time to time heh.
  (These are both a year old...but I don't think my lips or eyes have changed much in the past year so they can stay heh)

7. Unsymetricalness
     Nothing on my body is the same as on the other side.  When I was a toddler my mom used a ruler to measure my nipples I guess and they're not even, my eyebrows are completely different on each side, my knuckles don't match up from left to right hand, my left foot is distinctly different from my right, my eyes are a bit different from side to side.  I used to hate it.  Felt like it made me a freak, everyone's usually a bit off from one side to another, but I kind of like it now.  Dunno why, just something interesting to know and observe and find fun with my body.

8. Calves
     Man my calves (and thighs) used to be the biggest, strongest, most developed part of my body.  Playing soccer, and martial arts was pretty much all lower body so they were nice.  After I ripped my Achilles my calves and legs atrophied from not walking for like a year to the point of being nothing.  Sucked.  They're growing back now, and while nowhere near where they used to be I just like to see my calves.  The shape, the way the muscle feels...I think I just have a calf fetish heh.  I usually like observing other people's calves too.

9. Shins
     Just purely a kickboxing reason...they're sharp and people don't like being hit by them.  People would rather be kicked by a 260lb Samoan than my sharp boney shins hehe.  In born weapons are nice.

10. Weight
     While the rest of the country may seem to have a problem with my weight I came to terms with it finally last year.  I was finally happy to be 140 at my 6'2".  Then my ex and I broke up, she told me my weight was disgusting because I was too skinny and it was a turn off...which led to a bit of a depression and a need to gain weight heh.  I did, gained 20lbs once again I'm fine with my weight, but I think I would be fine even if I was back to 140lbs.  My body was always porportional, never too small in any one spot to make it look awkward, just skinny all over.  Having said that I still want to gain another 20lbs to get to 180, but it's more for a physical ability desire rather than an aesthetic desire.

11. Hands
     My hands are relatively big I guess? I dunno people seem surprised by my hands, probably because I seem smaller than I am again.  Plus my hands are almost always warm/hot.  It's like I'm a heater.  They're also naturally really soft.  So when giving massages it's like a soft warm blanket...as someone once said to me hehe.

12. Skin (Minus my face)
     My skin tone is nice, pretty dark without being weird looking.  Only thing is I got sick when I was 18 and ever since then my face can't seem to go back to my original darkness.  Soooo people think I'm pasty but then when I stand next to them topless, or compare arms I'm generally darker than they are and they get confused.

13. Height
     I would rather be 5'8"-5'10" since it would make Martial arts about 1000x's easier and more natural.  But being tall has it's advantages.  Society thinks Taller = better, so at least I don't have to worry about any of those inferiorities ever popping up.  Plus it makes blocking/spiking in Volleyball and dunking in Bball a lot easier hehe.

14. Butt
     My butt isn't exceptionally big, and I generally wear pants that don't fit because they don't make pants my size heh, so people tend to think I have a flat or non existent butt.  But I like my butt...next to my abs it's my one constant that pretty much never goes away and can always see and think damn looks good, or somethin like that.

15. Back
     Strong back = better posture...better posture = better feeling about yourself.  My posture has always been bad.  The past year I've been working on making it better.  Found out that my back was pretty weak which is why my posture sucks, so I worked on strengthening my back...now my posture is better and my back looks nicer woo.

     Saying a lot of that makes me feel somewhat concieted.  I'm usually the type who consistently tears himself down, more out of habit rather than actually believing it sometimes.  I'll constantly refuse praise such as when someone says "You're handsome." I'll say something like "You must be blind..." Like most people my flaws stem from a jacked up childhood, family and school friends.  I think my first suicide attempt was when I was in 3rd grade maybe 4th but it was around then.  Scissors to the wrist, tried 8 more times just that year all ending in failures obviously heh.

     Ok and that's my long ass contribution to the Exposed project heh.  Hopefully with more and current photos added soon.

My mom came to me today as I was leaving for work.  Asking what I had wanted to do for Christmas this year.  So I of course lied to her, told her I was working all day.  Which is really only a partial lie.  I'm working from 2-6pm.  But I told her I was working 2-10pm.  Told her I didn't want to do anything to which she replied "Yeah I figured you'd say that."

So now I don't have to deal with either of my "parents" on Christmas day, and Christmas Eve I'm at work all night so I won't have to deal with them then either.  It's nice having a job on Christmas makes it much easier to avoid people heh.